Thursday, May 31, 2007

A few lessons learned



I learn about SO MUCH MORE than art when I paint!

This morning, I was messing around in the studio, and nothing was coming together. I was feeling frustrated. One ugly piece of paper after another. I started getting pouty and petulant. Finally I regressed to an infantile state and threw my brush on the floor.

Then I thought, “Do you want to be an artist or not? No one is forcing you to. If you don’t want to do this, just stop. But if you do want to do this, keep on going.”

I decided to keep slogging onward. Then I remembered that painting is like exercising. At first you’re stiff and awkward, especially if a little time has elapsed since the last session (even one or two days can make a big difference). Just like gently warming up one’s circulation and coordination, the “art voice” inside takes time to warm up.

So this morning I kept going. Finally some marks started sparking off of earlier marks. Finally some background tones started to support some newer applications. Finally something started to happen. Phew.

I thought, none of this is going to win me a medal, earn me any money, might never be seen by anyone else but me. So why the heck do I do it? I could be out there earning a Ph.D. I could be climbing Mount Whatever. I could be earning a decent paycheck.

Here’s the answer. Because when two lines are just the right width and they flow together, when two colors touch each other and sing, when two shapes touch each other and bounce … for some weird undefinable reason, THAT’S ENOUGH. It doesn’t matter who made it, although there’s a little ego part inside of me that’s proud that I’m the one who did it. But just to be able to see those exciting things happen on a canvas … that’s reward enough.

Monday, May 28, 2007

Examples of Mr. Marsh's artwork




The top image is a drawing made by my great-grandfather, Charles Marsh (see his bio in the following blog entry). He usually worked in pencil, but this appears to be made with pen and ink. I earned a degree in fashion illustration when I graduated from high school; I wonder if heredity played a role?

The bottom image is a monogram belt buckle he created. Maybe this is where I got my love of calligraphic line?

My great-grandfather the artist



I am often asked if there are other artists in my family. My parents and grandparents are/were very verbal people, and several of them are musically talented. But no one else in my family has an interest in making art, the burning daily desire to create pictures, like I have.

Except, that is, for my maternal great-grandfather, Charles Wallace Marsh, who was an artist. As a little girl, I admired the series of his drawings that my grandmother kept framed on her bedroom wall -- intricate pencil drawings of wasp-waisted ladies wearing huge hats. I delighted in their intricate detail and cross-hatched shading whenever I visited my grandmother’s house.

The drawings of ladies were completed by my great-grandfather during his private time. During the working week, he was employed as an engraver, carving delicate monograms into belt buckles and brooches and cutting intricate designs into silverware and tea services. Since he didn’t have the same freedom to invent details with these monograms that he did with his drawings, he worked creatively within the limitations of the shapes of the letters. He used the sweeping tail of the letter G to create drama, for example, or joined W and M by the comb-like teeth that those letters have in common. When I was young, my grandmother would often take out her jewelry box to show me the collection of pins and rings he had engraved for her.

My knowledge of his life is sketchy, gleaned from stories told by my grandmother, the younger of his two children, and the photograph albums kept by my Aunt Bea, his older daughter. He was born Charles Wallace Marsh in 1872 and he worked for 35 years as an engraver at Daniel Low and Company in Salem, Massachusetts. The wonderful photograph shown above is from 1907 and shows him at his workbench, facing a grouping of fancy silver teapots that await the elegant touch of one of his designs.

He married a woman who, judging from their facial expressions as they gazed at each other in photographs, must have been the love of his life. She looked a lot like the ladies in his drawings. Beatrice was their first child and, when she was about 5 years old, Dorothy, my grandmother, was born. Mrs. Marsh died when my grandmother was still a baby, apparently of typhoid fever after she drank contaminated milk.

My great-aunt and grandmother were cared for by the members of their mother’s large family. They felt loved but always keenly aware of their position as outsiders looking in. At last Mr. Marsh remarried, apparently not for love but to provide a mother for his young daughters. He seems to have put his new wife in charge of the girls while he worked long hours as the family breadwinner. Unfortunately, the second Mrs. Marsh did not prove to be a good stepmother. One family anecdote reveals that she served only stewed tomatoes for the girls’ lunch so often that my grandmother was sent home from elementary school for “malnourishment.” But as so often happens with a distant but affectionate father, his daughters adored “Papa” and relished their time with him.

My mother remembers Mr. Marsh, her grandfather, with the same adoration that my grandmother and great-aunt felt. She recalls him as someone who went out of his way to make her feel special. He built her a swing in the back yard and called her his “little swing girl.” Sadly, he died in 1942, when he was 69 and my mother was 6.

When I look at his drawings and engravings, I feel that I can tell what his motivations were as an artist. He wanted to express life’s gracious, refined qualities, as implied through a woman’s swan-like neck and delicate tendrils of hair. He wanted to capture the simple beauty of shape through the imaginative designs of his monograms. And perhaps, like most people, and artists in particular, he wanted to leave a part of himself on earth after his death. In the way his voice continues to speak through my art, he has certainly achieved that.

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

A world of possibilities



Am I the only artist who can't fathom "creative block"? The challenge I face in the studio is having enough time to explore all the possibilities.

My friend Janine was kind enough to visit my studio on Monday and give me her thoughts on my latest work. In showing her the various pieces I've made over the past few months, I realized that each one offers MANY possible directions that I could proceed in. And each direction could take years to pursue!

The problem isn't in wondering what to do, it's in deciding which of the myriad of possible paths to take.

The image at the top of this blog entry is just one of the many directions I am considering.

Lately I've been drawing swirling calligraphic lines on my canvases with fluid acrylic paints squeezed through a contact-lens-cleaner bottle, then laying sheets of paper across the surface of the canvas and running over it with a brayer. This widens and softens the lines, which looks great on the canvas. It also leaves me with page after page of these lovely lace-like lines, just waiting to become works of art on their own.

Inspired by my favorite project to assign in my beginning drawing classes -- a drawing of three white eggs on a white cloth with a strong spotlight -- I decided to draw little egg shapes in graphite between the lines on one of these leftover "blotter" pages. I like the freely flowing lines, originally drawn spontaneously with paint, in contrast with the precise pencil markings that seem to suggest three-dimensional forms.

Creative block?! Not a problem.

Friday, May 18, 2007

Working small, walking tall


I am thrilled -- all three of my entries were accepted into the Attleboro Arts Museum's annual Small Works show.

The paintings that were selected are completely different from one another, from different series. This leads me to a good tip for would-be juried-show entrants. Last year, I entered this same exhibit with three pieces that were from the same series, just slight variations of each other (the type of application one would make to a gallery).

Only one of the paintings was accepted that time, making me realize that the juror's goal is to curate a well-rounded, exciting exhibit based on the very best images submitted. Unlike a gallerist's goal, which is to reveal one artist's exploration and development of a single concept or approach. So a juror is more likely to want variety, from the group of applicants as a whole as well as from the individual artists' applications.

With that thought in mind, my suggestion to other artists when applying to juried shows is to submit examples that are distinct from one another.

The Small Works Show is on view from June 15 to July 14. For more information, please visit http://www.attleboroartsmuseum.org or telephone 508-222-2644.

The painting pictured above is one of the accepted entries; it's "Web 2," made of acrylic and ink on canvas, and measures 17" H and 14" W.

Friday, May 11, 2007

My painting in the Cambridge Art Association's National Prize Show



I am honored to have my painting "Pirouette" included in the Cambridge Art Association's Tenth Annual National Prize Show. My work is one of 112 pieces selected from more than 1,000 entries by juror Thomas W. Lentz of the Harvard University Art Museums. My piece is on display in the art association's University Place Gallery, located at 124 Mount Auburn Street in Cambridge, across from the post office in Harvard Square; the gallery is open Monday through Friday 9 AM to 6 PM, and Saturdays 9 AM to 1 PM. The show is on view until June 20.

"Pirouette" is 28" square, made of acrylic and spray paint on stretched canvas.

For a complete view of the National Prize Show on line, please visit http://www.cambridgeart.org/npsbrowse.html?a=7049

Monday, May 7, 2007

Try, try again



I was fortunate enough to be invited to serve as a juror last month for the exhibit “Arts In Bloom” at the Cultural Arts Alliance in Hopkinton, MA, along with Susan Stoops, Curator of Contemporary Art at the Worcester Art Museum, and Norman Law, a painter and printmaker from Walpole, MA.

Although there was a selection of compelling entries to the show, the three of us jurors were immediately drawn to a colorful landscape called “The Amber Sunset” by watercolorist Crist Filer. We were impressed by the painting’s bold color scheme and intrigued by its implied narrative. While we carefully considered each of the works that had been submitted, it was a unanimous decision for us to award this painting “Best In Show.”

In a conversation yesterday with the gallery’s director, I was fascinated to learn that Mr. Filer had entered this same painting in the Cultural Arts Alliance’s juried show last year, and that the work had been rejected!

Herein lies a lesson for all exhibiting artists, I believe. It is easy to forget that reactions to works of art are subjective. It is hard not to take the rejection of one’s work as a personal rejection.

But in the studio, we artists must remember to remain true to ourselves. And when it comes to the business of exhibiting our art, like everything else in life, persistence pays off. If you are sure a work or a series is good, don’t let one “no” deter you (or even a few “no’s,” or even a truckload of “no’s”). Keep applying for shows, grants, residencies, etc., until you get a “yes.”

If Mr. Filer had taken “no” for an answer last year, the other two jurors and I, not to mention all of the appreciative visitors to the 2007 “Arts In Bloom” show, never would have had the pleasure of viewing the awesome “Amber Sunset”!

In continuing with my “golden oldies” theme from yesterday’s blog, the painting shown at the top of this entry is “Turmeric,” a painting I made in 1996 (while in graduate school), of acrylic, oil stick, and fabric collaged on stretched canvas, approximately 45” high and 42” wide.

Time capsule



In keeping with the season, I've been doing some spring cleaning in my studio. The usual neatening, vacuuming, and organizing, that seems to come naturally at this time of year.

Yesterday I dug up, from a stack of old paintings, the one pictured above, "Arbor," an old favorite of mine that was made way back in 1998, almost 10 years ago. It's about 40" high by 45" wide, made of acrylic, oil stick and fabric collaged on stretched canvas.

Amazing how finding an old piece like that is like running in to an old friend! Seeing that image, that I worked so hard on for so long, reminds me of where my head was at when I made it. I was in such a different place from where I am now. There were so many people I hadn't met yet, so many experiences I hadn't had yet, so much I didn't realize about myself and about the world.

For the artist, it's revealing and instructive to periodically look back at old pieces and figure out what threads of vision and ideas have continued through to your work today. Among the colors and shapes I was using in 1998, I see glimmers of my recent work in the calligraphic oil-stick lines I drew in this painting. Now I remember -- I had just discovered R&F pigment sticks and had just plunged in to a mad love affair with them! (It took a while for my Visa balance to recover from the relationship.)

So in addition to all its other benefits, I realize that art can serve the maker like a diary, recording a moment in time with perfect clarity and making the present easier to comprehend.

Friday, May 4, 2007

Trash or Treasure?



I was going to throw this stuff out -- paper scraps from a template I was cutting out to use in a new painting. My resourceful husband, with his unique artistic eye, thought my discards were interesting enough to include in a (this) photo.

My experience in the studio today with these templates makes me think of a subject that artists fear to mention, or even think about: those days in the studio when everything we touch turns to ... trash. Sometimes we walk through the studio door with a plan in mind, ready and eager to turn our vision into reality. Other times we just go with the flow, trying whatever the painting seems to say it needs. Regardless of the process, there are those days when our best-laid plans or most promising ideas just fall flat.

The painting WON'T come to life, no matter what we try -- adding more, scraping off, murmuring words of encouragement, praying, cursing, or throwing up our hands and leaving the room for a cup of tea or a long walk.

Maybe we react philosophically to these experiences, and tell ourselves it wasn't meant to be -- the idea, the direction, that particular combination of materials or colors. Or maybe we get frustrated and feel like hanging up our palettes and turning to something more rewarding like gardening, or more lucrative like plumbing.

But we have to admit, to paraphrase the old bumpersticker slogan, that a bad day in the studio is better than a good day anywhere else. In the studio, it's your own little world. Yes, you mess up sometimes, but it's YOUR mess. No one else told you to combine those brushstrokes or those colors or those layers.

And let's not forget those heavenly days in the studio, when everything you touch seems to turn to gold. Every new idea leads somewhere. Every stroke is what you meant to say. Every application is a culmination of what you've been trying to accomplish for months.

So for all those days of thinking, "Forget this! I'm going to put a ping-pong table in the middle of this studio and sell all these paint supplies at a yard sale," there are those times when it all just falls into place.

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Dreaming of what to write about in my blog














As I test out my first blog entry, I thought of what Alice in Wonderland said: "What's the use of a book without pictures or conversations?" So here's a picture ... me slumbering beside my favorite feline, a.k.a. Petey. More intellectually stimulating entries to follow, as soon as I figure out if I have the hang of this.